Stream of Consciousness Blogging

I want this paper to: be enjoyable to write, make me learn what caused me to be me, teach me why I like english so much, teach me why I hate math so much, reaffirm my beliefs that I'm doing the right thing with my life by deciding to be an English major, let people get to know me a little better, let myself get to know me a little better, be completely honest.

Griefs:
Dog dying, grandpa, boring day to day routine, cubicle job, being held up by some crazy woman with a god-complex, set of robberies on our street, getting in lots of trouble, learning about friend's really serious problems and not knowing what to do, going to school every day, church, leaving for drum corps, coming back from drum corps, friend's parents dying, and the monotony of everyday life.

Ecology:
Suburbia- we have the white picket fence, all the houses look the same, kinda settled in but the trees are still unscarred and young, house, dog, yard, fenced in, boring, uneventful, nothing to talk about, nothing to do.

Words to Use:
Surburbia, Middle-Class, Subdivisions, Rentension Ponds, Concrete Playground, "American Beauty" movie, monotony, duldrums, dreary, tedious, tiresome, beautiful, discontent, disgruntlement, alienated, disenchanted, disillusioned, rebellious, melodramatic, prevaricative, tergiversatory

"In the illustrative case of Rome, Italy, in the 1920s and 1930s, suburbs were intentionally created ex novo in order to give lower classes a destination, in consideration of the actual and foreseen massive arrival of poor people from other areas of the country. Many critics have seen in this development pattern (that was circularly distributed in every direction) also a quick solution to a problem of public order (keeping the unwelcome poorest classes together with the criminals, in this way better controlled, comfortably remote from the elegant "official" town)."-Wikipedia Article, Found it funny.

Economy: Secret, Middle Class, Unknown, no allowance, no money, hated asking for it, rationed christmas money till easter-easter to summer-summer to birthday- birthday to christmas


Municipal Contexts: Railroad to Chicago, Parking Garage, Paved Roads that are always being redone, Young ash trees, neighbors all had dogs, neighbors all had little kids, parks within walking distance, sledding hill not too far, Obrien Park, Mother's Garden, Fishing ponds with too many fish, Perfect, Too Perfect,

Family Problems: Dad getting sick, blood clot, mother getting surgery at the same time, grandpa really changing, grandparents getting older, great grandma moving out of her house, financial arguments, mother's side is absolutely crazy, grandparents moving to florida, cousins moving away

Eagleton: "Like religion, literature works primarily by emotion and experience, and so was admirably well-fitted to carry through the ideological task which religion left off. Indeed by our own time literature has become effectively indentical with the opposite of analytical thought and conceptual enquiry:whereas scientists, philosophers, and political theorists are saddled with these drably discursive pursuits, students of literature occupy the more prized territory of feeling and experience. " Page 51

Bukowski, Beat Generation, J.D. Salinger, Anarchist Cookbook just because I couldn't, Robert Fulghum, Kerouac

What is education? Finally learning what education is. Learning by myself, outside of school.

MUSIC- Impact on my life. Life is music. Music became life, but had to go outside school. Hated music in school, loved it outside. Hated learning in school, loved it outside.

Freire: "Any situation in which some men prevent others from engaging in the process of inquiry is one of violence. The means used are not important; to alienate men from their own decision making is to change them into objects."

Viswanathan: "A vital if subtle connection exists between a discourse in which those who are to be educated are represented as morally and intellectually deficient and the attribution of moral and intellectual values to the literary works they are assigned to read."